It's my first time here, and so I don't really know if I've come to the right place.
I have a very specific question, and I guess that one would need some psychiatric knowledge about personality disorders to answer it. Did I come to the right place ? If not, I'd be grateful if someone could redirect me to some other place.
I've read some information about PPD (Paranoid Personality Disorder) and APD (Avoidant Personality Disorder). I also suffer from social phobia.
I'm not sure what to think. A friend I know told me that a lot of people recognized themselves in the PPD description.
I've been suffering from extreme shyness my whole life. I've always thought that people hated me, were talking behind my bad or looking at me in a weird way. In other words, I've always been feeling judged by other people. Is it right or wrong ? I don't know really, because no matter what people tell me, it makes no difference. If someone tells me "I like you", I will think they only feel pity towards me, or just want to be kind, and don't really mean it. It doesn't matter who is talking : people I don't know, friends or family, I can't trust them completely.
So as you can imagine, I quickly isolated myself from society and human interaction. Until today. Now my social life is none, I'm too scared of being hurt if I deal with people again.
My question is, what am I suffering from ? What caused what? Did the social phobia implied the PPD and AAD ? Do I really suffer from PPD or am I only social phobic ?
I know this must sound extremely confusing. I really need help at the moment, because I have no idea what is going on, what to treat, etc.
I would really appreciate if somebody could help me with this. Please use the email address I've written above, becaus I'm not sure if I'll be able to come back here in the near future.
Thanks for your time,
S.