How I feel about meditation and Holotropic Breathwork right now is that I want and need to do both. Only time will tell. I sit for one hour per day and I plan to apply to the Grof Transpersonal Training program when I have enough Holotropic Breathwork sessions to qualify. I am very interested in this work, as it has had profound effects on moving me towards a resolution of some very deep biographical issues that have hung on for a long time. I feel if I really want to know what is on my mind I can participate in a session and the truth will inevitably appear. This is also becoming true for meditation in the past month. Some very big and painful issues have blown out right in the middle of sitting, and sometimes later in the day. Oh, I don't like this at all, but I keep going with lots of therapeutic support. Maybe how I view things at this time is that I am not an experienced meditator, nor do I feel strong in being able to concentrate at this point, so I like to do Holotropic Breathwork to clear out garbage from my mind to help make meditation easier and as a way to check in with what is really on my mind. Also Holotropic Breathwork is the only natural means I know right now to tap into the nonordinary states of consciousness that I lost access to when I came out of an acute spiritual emergency. Despite the acute pain that I lived in during that time, some of the experiences I had were priceless. As I was drawn out of that state with treatment I was very angry for a long time at the loss of those nonordinary experiences. They are the gift and the education of thousands of lifetimes. They cannot be expressed in words. So until I become an effective meditator and gain some mind training, Holotropic Breathwork is my quarterly ritual of going as deep as I can into my mind...a way of paying my respects to a source of energy and information far too vast and powerful for someone like me to handle.
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