I have been following what you have written. I had a similar experience five years ago. I never know what to call it: an opening, and epiphany, enlighenment. Nothing really fits. Much information. Such a change in perception. Such a change in self. Part of it was immediately integrated. Part of it was a struggled between the detached side of me who continued to want to protect. Eventually, I was able to stop that and realize the protector was the unhealthy one. Some things remain known but unintegrated. That may happen over time. For the most part, what once "felt" like a miracle is now me. Now I know it was a miracle, but I don't feel awed or separate from it. I too wanted someone to discuss it with. I had many friends who were meditators, and the like, who listened, and thought it was neat but mundane. I am still just totally blown away by what the mind can do. What potential we must cut off at a very early age. It has forced me to look around a tremendously gifted or uniquely gifted people and wonder if we didn't all at one time have that potential, both to think, create and to sense and feel.
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