HELLO I AM A 33 YEAR OLD MOTHER OF THREE. MY YOUNGEST IS MY STEP SON "MY WONDERFUL CHILD" I HAVE BEEN RAISING HIM SINCE HE WAS 2 1/2. HE HAS BEEN DIAGNOSED WITH ADHD AND SECONDARY ODD. HE HAS BEEN TAKING ADDERAL 20MG A DAY AND 10MG PAXIL AND CLONADINE AT NIGHT.
FOR ALL OF THE EARLY YEARS HE CLUNG TO ME LIKE GLUE ATTACKING HIS ALCHOLIC MOTHER WHEN SHE WOULD FINALLY SHOW UP FOR A VISIT. SHE STARTING PUTTING HER LIFE TOGETHER ALMOST 3 YEARS AGO AND EVERY SINCE THEN THE BEHAVIOR HAS BEEN UNIMAGINABE. SHE HAS MADE IT TO 1 DOCTORS APPOINTMENT AND TWO SCHOOL CONFRENCES IN 8 YEARS. I HAVE TAKEN MY SON TO PEDIATRICIAN PHSYCIATRIST NEUROLOGIST COUNSELING I HAVE READ SO MANY BOOKS LOOKING FOR SOLUTIONS. HIS BIOLOGICAL MOTHER JUST FINISHED THE FIRST BOOK UNDERSTANDING ADD/ADHD SHE HAD IT FOR 4 YEARS. I CAN NOT SEEM TO HELP HER UNDERSTAND JUST HOW IMPORTANT CONSISTANCY IS. IT IS OBVIOUSE EVERY TWO WEEKS WHEN HE RETURNS JUST HOW DISTURBED HE IS. HE SAVES IT ALL FOR ME!!!!I AM SO FULL OF SADNESS. I HAVE TRIED MY BEST TO HELP HIM FIX HIS PROBLEMS. I DID MY BEST TO REUNITE THEIR RELATIONSHIP (WITH HIS MOM)
HE LIES CONSTANTLY EVERYTHING IS ALWAY'S THE OPPOSITE. HE IS LIKE A CAMILION AROUND HIS MOM AND HIS FATHER(DAD AT TIMES) HE USES ME FOR HIS SHIELD (HE VERBALIZED THIS TO ME) I FEEL LIKE I WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO TRULY HELP HIM. FOR THE PAST 2 YEARS I FEEL I HAVE BEEN IN HELL! HE REFUSES TO ACCEPT ATHORITY HE SEEKS REVENGE WHEN COUGHT HE IS VERY PERCISE IN EVERYTHING HE DOES. HE HAS THE BEST HEARING (BIONIC EARS) HE CAN HEAR A WHISPER ALL THE WAY FROM HIS BEDROOM IF WE ARE IN THE KITCHEN! HE USED TO LIE WHEN HIS DAD GOT HOME AND THEN I GOT IT FROM BOTH ENDS. I WAS LOOKING AT A SEPERATION FROM PURE EXAUGHSTEN AND HE SAID TO ME: YOU FEEL YOU DON'T MAKE A DIFFERENCE BUT YOU DO! YOU ARE WRONG! MY DAD CAN'T SEE "IT" AND I'M NOT SURE IF MY MOM EVER WILL...SHE IS TOO OLD SHE DOSN'T EVEN GET UPSET WHEN I DO THE WRONG THING. IF YOU WERE TO LEAVE I WOULD PROBLY END UP IN A FOSTER HOME! I DON'T HAVE TO BE GUARDED AROUND YOU. I EXPLAINED TO HIM HE HAD TO GET HONEST WITH HIS MOM AND DAD! THE TRUTH WOULD HELP SET HIM FREE! IT IS LIKE HAVING A TODDLER IN THE HOUSE EVERYTHING HE KNOWS HE CAN'T TOUCH HE DOES IT. HE SHOWS NO SIGHNS OF GUILT OR REMORSE! THE ONLY TIME HE THINKS THROUGH HIS ACTIONS IS IF I WALK INTO THE ROOM! OTHER WISE HE JUST DOSN'T SEEM TO BE ATTACHED. FOR ALMOST 2 YEARS I HAVE NOT ALLOWED HIM TO DISAPPEAR INTO THE TV OR VIDEO GAMES BECAUSE HE WOULD NEVER CHECK BACK IN! NOW HE IS STARTING TO COMMUNICATE AGAIN. NOW THAT HE IS GETTING HONEST WITH HIS DAD HE HAS HIS MOTHER UNDER HIS MANIPULATION TOOL! SHE FEELS GUILTY. IF HE LIES AND WE DO NOT CATCH HIM HE WILL SHAVE PART OF AN EYE BROW OFF OR CUT HIS EYE LASHES HIT HIMSELF.....I ALSO BELIEVE HE HAS BEEN SNIFFING WHITE OUT,PENS GLUES ECT. I MUST TELL YOU I HAD TO PUT A LOCK ON OUR BEDROOM DOOR AND THE MORE THINGS HE ABUSES I HAVE TO LOCK UP. HE EVEN GAVE OUR PUPPY ONE HALF OF HIS PAXIL THANK GOD I SEEN HER LICKING ON IT AND GOT IT AWAY FROM HER. I AM FEELING QUITE POWERLESS I'M IN THERAPY MYSELF. AL JUST STARTED AGAIN ALSO. I AM AFRAID, WHEN MY HUSBAND AND I TOOK HIM TO HIS COUNSELOR(FIRST VISIT) SHE MADE IT CLEAR THAT WE HAD TO FOCUS ON OUR MARRAIGE AND THE REST WOULD FALL INTO PLACE. SHE DOSN'T HAVE A CLUE! EVEN MY MOTHER INLAW IS EXTREMELY WORRIED ABOUT MY SON SHE IS AFRAID HE COULD EASLY FALL IN THE KIP KINKLE CATAGORY IF HE DON'T GET THE HELP HE NEEDS. I PRAYED FOR A LONG TIME FOR ANOTHER CHILD. I HAD A TUMER AND LOST MY OPPERTUNITY TO BEAR ANOTHER ONE WHEN I GOT AL I FELT BLESSED. BEING A STEP MOTHER CAN SOMETIMES BE HARD WHEN SOME PEOPLE THINK YOU CAN'T LOVE THEM LIKE YOUR OWN. HE HAS TESTED ME TO EVERY LIMIT AND I HAVE STILL STAYED RIGHT HEAR THE SAME. I LOVE HIM. EVEN MY FAMILY SAY'S SEND HIM TO HIS MOMS. I TELL THEM YOU FAIL TO REALIZE MY BLOOD MAY NOT RUN INSIDE HIM BUT HE IS MY SON. MY HEART IS CRYING OUT FOR ANY INFORMATION THAT COULD HELP MY SITUATION. TOO MANY DETAILS TO SHOW THE WHOLE THING. THANK YOU FOR YOUR TIME
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