Hi, I'm not a clinical professional or a professional of any sort. This is the first really serious place that I've found where I can tell someone, who might understand the seriousness of the problem, what the problem is. First of all, for a lot of years now, I've thought that I had schizophrenia. By now, I'm not so sure that I don't. But anyway, I first realized that I was being drugged about a year ago. I started sleeping in my van in the back yard at my mothers house and when I woke up in the morning I would notice that things had been moved around in there while I was sleeping. So then I made sure that it was locked up every night before going to sleep and getting ropes and typing the doors and windows together because the lock on the window on one side was broken and I was still noticing things even after just locking the doors without tying them
together or to something so that nobody could possibly get in. When I started doing that I would wake up in the morning symptom free and would stay that way all day unless I slipped and took a nap without locking up or going to the old lady's house across the street (she gave me poisoned beets) they were delicious. But as soon as I ate them I started having auditory hallucinations. Her excuse for doing it is because she saw her son shot to death when he was 23 years old. So I don't go to her house anymore. There are other things, physical, visual, noticeable things. One is that he/she (I believe it is a man) was plucking my eyebrows out while I slept also, he especially has a preference for my left eyebrow. For so many years I thought that my eyebrows just fell out and that most of them didn't grow back because I was pluck happy when I was a teenager. But when I started locking up at night they started growing back. I used to wear my hair over my face on the left side also because of no eyebrow making me look wierd. A mole has been surgically removed from my face in my sleep. There is no possibility it could have fallen off because it was flush with my face. And if you look closely, you can see where it was removed. Another thing is that my hair is longer now than it has ever been in my life. I used to wonder why my hair would only grow to a certain length and never get any longer. There are other, really freaky things, but I don't feel like talking about it anymore right now except to tell you that when I was 14 my nose was broken and I don't have any memory of it happening. I thought that it just started growing like that. People that I knew asked me how my nose had got broken and I told them it had just started growing that way. A few of them insisted that it had been broken and I didn't believe them. I believe that this has been going on since I was a a little kid, even before I got into my teens. Could someone here give me some advice as to what to do about it. I've tried the local police in the past when I knew that somebody had been in my house while I was a way. That was a waste of time. They're more worried about if my dogs bark (excessively is not a question). Also, local mental health professionals, councelors and such, tend to be convinced that these kinds of things are paranoid thinking as a result of having a disease. When I was diagnosed for the first time I asked for the diagnosis because I wanted to go to a research facility and they would not let me come there without having some schizophrenic diagnosis. Up til then, the doctors said they didn't know and that I didn't meet the criteria for being diagnosed with schizophrenia. But they did that for me because they knew I was determined not to remain ill. Thank you for any help you can give.
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